Dream #1: Sooner than expected

Share: I had a very special dream. I have difficulty interpreting it because there are too many emotions involved and I can't be neutral. I dreamed of my ex-boyfriend for whom I still have a lot of very conflicting feelings. It's a war between my heart (love) and my head (pride). The most special thing is that I had this dream on the night of his 43rd birthday…

Dream: I was sitting at a table on a balcony and someone brings me a piece of paper with a message written on it. He said, “I’m earlier than expected.” At this moment I don't really understand the message, but I look up and see my old boyfriend, standing at the top of the front steps. I recognize him by his orange shirt and his hair. I run away and run up the steps at full speed to join him and take him in my arms. At that moment he says to me, and his words are very clear, "I love you deeply, that's why I came earlier than expected." He hugs me and together we enter a beautiful apartment. We walked through the door together hand in hand. And inside this apartment, we were in the living room, there was a lot of beautiful woodwork. A very warm atmosphere. There was another man I don't know, standing by the door, and he was smiling at us.

Dream #2: Obligation to eat

Dream: I see a woman in front of me, dressed in a dress of 2 colors, white and purple. The dress displays square geometric shapes, a white square, a purple square, each bordered with a small black stripe; each square measuring approximately 3 inches by 3 inches. The fabric is satin. Looking at this woman, I recognize myself, it’s me. I hold a spoon (like a teaspoon) in my right hand (I'm right-handed). I hear a voice inside me saying, “EAT.” I then see myself inserting my spoon into my body, opposite the stomach, I take the spoon out and it is filled with a green texture, very clear and very shiny, like tiny crystals that I swallow. SO. The VOICE tells me 2 more times to eat, I know that I have no choice to obey and I would never dare refuse anyway, because I realize that this voice is that of the Divine. So I repeat the gesture 2 more times, I bring the spoon forward, it passes through the dress and my body and I take out the full spoon again, but I swallow the 3rd spoonful more difficult. I have the distinct feeling that I am “full” and I can no longer eat anything. I wake up.

Dream #3: My inner man

Share: Is this “inner man” my “action” portion of myself? Is he the previous forms of men that I was? I'm still confused about this concept. 3 1/2 years ago, I dreamed very often that I was a man, and in the majority of my dreams, if not all, I was either injured or very badly mistreated. I suffered a lot of violence, of all kinds, a lot of rage, anger. In my real life, the men I met often criticized me for being too strong, for being a man in my head, despite my female body. You can easily understand the path I have been living for 3 1/2 years... Repolarizing myself as a woman requires a lot of energy and strength... My consolation is that for the past 1 year, I have practically only dreamed I am a man. When I see men, they are calm, smiling, receiving treatment, they enter or leave the hospital looking happy. I understand that the image of my inner man is improving. I also know very well that if, as a man in my dreams, I have suffered a lot of physical and moral injuries, it is because I have made others suffer them.... I also made the link between the men who mattered in my life, either lovingly, in friendship, those who wanted to be part of it and those who no longer wanted to be part of it, those whom I welcomed and those whom I refused... So how do I work on this “inner man”, how do I work on this concept? Does this inner man correspond to all these men in my life? The last on the list, the 14th, told me that women like me were on earth to bring gentleness to men... He never knew or understood the importance that these words had on me. .. I then saw a small sign that I was improving... So, please, explain this inner man to me so that I can understand myself better and repolarize myself better and better as a woman, because I came back to this life as a woman and that is what I want to do. improve and make peace with my inner man.

Dream #4: An intense baker

Dream: My boss leaves me 2 keys to her office. Our former team leader is present. The scene changes: It's night, my mother leaves me 2 $20.00 bills in Canadian Tire money on my desk. I hear the little neighbor crying at night, like in real life. I get up and go shopping. There are lots of people, even though it's night time. I go to a store and tell a young saleswoman that I'm up because of a little girl who cries all the time at night. I look at the saleswoman and say: “That’s her…” (but in a really unhappy way). I go to a bakery attached to this store, there is a couple before me, the lady buys a kind of egg panini. It’s still the early hours of the morning and there’s a line behind me. I then asked the same thing as the lady. The baker then begins to seduce me and becomes very enterprising. He's all over me and no one is coming to help me. After a moment, I managed to escape, going outside through a back door. I'm outside, I see him coming back to me, he explains to me that he's on medication to be "High" and that's why he's like that. Again, he is very enterprising and I struggle because he is always on top of me.

Dream #5: The almost empty fridge

Dream: I am with Jules, a man who was introduced to me last fall (in reality and it didn't work - in another dream I was told that I wanted find a 'Turnkey' man...). We are at his house. I look at him and I find that he is not proud of himself. I look in the fridge as we get ready to go grocery shopping. I'm all dressed, except I don't have any pants on, I'm wearing panties. So I look in the fridge and it's almost empty. I note a few missing items. Jules arrives and wonders how much groceries for 2 people will cost. I tell him about $130.00. I wonder if I was the one who paid for it last time.

Dream #6: An abandoned baby

Dream: I am with my husband and my 2 daughters. We find an abandoned baby boy. His diaper is full of poop. He's been alone, abandoned for a long time. He asks me for help. I understand he wants to pee, but a bit of feces is stuck to his penis. I take it off him and then he can finally relieve himself. I clean it. I want to take him with us. My husband doesn't want it, but I take it anyway. The baby is afraid that his real father will find him so I try to hide him and take him away discreetly. I feel my husband's disapproval. Then I change scenes. I am in Canada in a car that I drive in the left lane to overtake other cars, but my car does not move forward, even though I am fully on the accelerator pedal. The road goes up slightly, goes to the left and I see that it leads up to the mountain. It annoys me not to move forward even though I have a very powerful car. I turn around and I see lots of people in my car in the back (men and women I don't know) and I understand that there are too many people in the car, that it's too heavy.

Dream #7: Scratch game

Dream: I go to a tobacconist and buy a scratch game ticket. I scratch and win, so I get another ticket. The tobacconist makes a mistake and gives me several scratch cards without her noticing. Seeing the tobacconist's mistake, I leave the tobacconist to scratch my games. Then I scratch my games with a homeless woman and on one game, I win €31,000. But the woman says she won. An argument breaks out, the ticket is torn, but the woman takes the ticket, the tape, and goes to the tobacconist to collect the winnings. During the scraping, there was also a male witness. A little angry, I go to the tobacconist, the tobacconist is a friend and I explain to her that the ticket is mine and that the money is mine. Then, I feel like I'm waking up and I tell myself that I can hold her (the homeless woman) for a month to prevent her from getting the money. But then I tell myself that I wasn't correct with the tobacconist about the number of tickets so I don't have to get this money. For the homeless person, this money will make them feel better and if it's not okay, they'll get it back.

Dream #8: Snake to master

Dream: I see a man moving in all directions to do something, but he receives white balls which explode in front of him into thousands of small bubbles. He feels this as a warning. Next image: I see this man lying in a bed, trying to control a huge snake, his arms outstretched, so as not to be bitten because his mouth is wide open. At the end of the corridor comes a young girl, her arms encumbered, she calls her father to come and catch this snake. This he does and everyone leaves the room. I hear the man say, “I lost my job.” I stay in the room and lift the duvet. There are lots of things, a box and a typewritten letter. On this letter, I can read the word shaman.