Dream #1: A Life on Hold

Here's a dream I had before learning that I'd had a stillbirth and miscarriage.

Dream: I was in the antenatal clinic where I was still monitoring my pregnancy. I was sitting in the waiting line waiting for the examination results. The room was dark and dim, and I couldn't see anything or anyone in it.

After a while of waiting, a strange doctor, or others, came out and announced: We are sorry to inform you that your project has been abandoned, it cannot continue to develop.

The dream ended.

Sharing: I walked out of the dream and felt a lot of remorse, and guilt, and I blamed myself for not maintaining enough responsibility to continue nurturing the baby in my belly.

In concrete reality, I had to take care of many responsibilities at once, including work, moving into a new house, and transforming difficult memories that caused conflicts between our family during the preparation for the wedding, I forgot that I still had the most important project that needed to be prioritized above all - nurturing a baby inside me. But I didn't take enough responsibility for this important project that was taking shape.

I lacked the ability to self-assess the importance and priority of the projects I was nurturing. I was lacking in accepting help from those around me to share some of the responsibilities I had at that time. I had fears about being judged as too dependent and using pregnancy as an excuse to avoid the things I needed to do and accomplish.

I tried so hard to focus on projects and group work that I forgot that during pregnancy, I needed to be in a receptive state and go back inside a lot to prepare for the coming Soul. I was in an overly emissive state. Partly, I was not capable and not ready to take responsibility to project the baby I was raising at that time.

Dream #2:  The Scientist's Secret

I received this dream while I asked: What can I do to transform loneliness?

Dream: I gave a friend a ride home by bicycle. One of the pedals broke on our way, so we had to stop. He walked me home as it was dark. Simon (a coworker. Lack determination, shy and sometimes does not communicate well about workload) brought me shrimp salt.

I saw a female scientist who was in her 70s and lived alone. I witnessed her life story: she was in love with a married man.

They ran away from Germany to Sweden. The man's in-law’s family searched for them everywhere. So their life was always on the run. In Sweden, they got married and had one kid. The kid had black skin.

Daniel (immature, perverted tendencies, lack of sexual education) & I sat opposite each other at a square table covered with a red cloth. 

He asked me to do a fortune reading for him. I fell asleep.

I saw the female scientist again. She returned to Germany, leaving her husband & kid in Sweden. It was a consensus between the couple. Then, she devoted her life to science. 

I was back to the scene with Daniel. He was a bit irritated because I didn't do fortune reading for him. I saw a broken glass.

Dream #3:  The war and the sword

Dream: I dreamt that there was a war going on, and that Dr. Faucet was teaching me how to use a sword during the war.

Then the scene changes and I see my father, my brother and me sitting. I ask Father why we’re sitting and not fighting back, and he says it’s not right to fight.

There is a big board between the three of us and the other army, I suggest we start running away. We run quietly so that they don’t notice us and we reach my father's friend's house who is at the office. We wait for him to come back. Mom is sleeping in a room and I am happy that we are all safe.

Symbols:

Dr. Faucet: sometimes a little too intellectual, problems with wife, represent problems in inner couple, receptivity.

Father: forces his own expectations, emissive, show off, relies too much on friends' comments, gets influenced very fast by others.

Brother: ego, aggression, too sensitive, lazy, acts too cool and casual, doesn’t care enough about the people near him.

Dream #4: The devil with a hole in the back

Dream: My son (impatient, wants results as soon as possible) and I were walking, it was dark.

We met Tricia (she was our university basketball team leader, she passed away last year. She lacked receptivity, had a strong mentality). 

I realized that she had died and wondered why she was here.

Then I found that it was the devil in her form. There was a dark and deep hole in her back where the evil was in.

I pretend not to know to distract her. I had a silver hairpin and was ready to poke it in the evil hole. But my son shouted that this was an evil. She looked at me intensively and started to attack. Her roared and her body changed, the evil spirit was very strong. The silver hairpin was dropped.

The scene changed. In this scene, 3 dreams happened simultaneously. It was like 3 spaces/dimensions happened at the same time.

(2.1) I was on the first floor of a big house. I brought the scooter to the basement. My father told me to let him do it. I thanked him and told him I could do it myself. I also saw a man.

(2.2) I was eating something, I realized that there was meat in my bowl and I was a vegetarian so I didn't eat it.

(2.3) Linda, one woman and I are sitting in the living room (it looked exactly like my current living room, but in the dream, it was in another building). 

A woman said to me that she informed the guardian of me so I could come easily to this house 10-01. 

We were preparing the herbs to exorcise the evil in the first scene. There were a lot of helicopters with high-intensity searchlights hunting us (they worked for this evil).

I quickly closed the curtains, I knew they would find out soon. I left the living room. Linda ran after me. Outside, they said they'd asked to open room 10-01 and were going to check it out. I didn't know where I should hide and what I should do to protect Tom (my son). 

Sharing: When I woke up, I was paralyzed and took time to realize that I had come back to reality. It would be great if you could explain to me what type of this dream. I wondered why 3 dreams could happen simultaneously and what was the meaning of this dream type.