Dream #1: I sink into the snow

Sharing : In concrete terms, the day before I went to the salon funeral for the death of a cousin I love. This is the dream I have done and what it means to me.

Suzanne : (cousin 13 years older than me)

In the +: always smiling, caring, clean, friendly, etc.

In the - : always wants everything to be impeccable at home, always super clean, sometimes worries a little too much about what others think of her, rigid, and difficulty in her marriage with her husband (they stayed together, but didn't seem to not too happy except at the beginning).

Dream: I am with a small child. He walks next to me. We are on a snowy coast. We go down, but the child gets stuck in the snow. I hardly see him anymore. 

There are people, including two men who come towards us. We are a little in the transition. I hope I don't harm them. I am kneeling in front of the child to get him out of there. I remove the snow with my hands. I dig it.

I see my cousin Suzanne with other people. I'm on a slope and she's higher than me. I know she just died. I'm happy to see her again. I look at her and she admires the landscape in the distance. She seems to say, oh how beautiful... She smiles and she is beautiful.

I look at her and I have a baby in my arms. I wish she would turn around so I could say hello, but I slowly sink into the snow with the baby in my arms. This doesn't stress me out at all. I know I won't be able to say hello to him.

I find myself at home (old house on the water's edge where I experienced a lot of emotion, including the death of my partner, etc.) It's summer, there are people I know (I don't know them in concrete terms) who arrive with their children who are quite old. I look out the patio door at the lakefront. There is so much water that I can no longer see my swimming pool.

I see one of the children swimming, but I only see the black bathing suit, the part of the buttocks on the surface of the water, swimming. I'm like, oh my God, he's in my pool. I didn't even put any products in my pool. The water was still quite clear. I am surprised to see my swimming pool which is flooded by the lake.

Dream #2: The musical watch

Dream: I sleep in my grandmother's country house, in what we called the "boys' room", where my cousin Léo and I slept when we were children. Leo sleeps in another bed nearby.

Music comes from my watch, but I don't immediately understand that it's coming from there. Léo is disturbed and asks me if we can close the bedroom door to hear the music less: he thinks it comes from outside.

I realize that indeed the bedroom door is open, and there also seems to be light outside. But the music is really coming from my watch, and I don't know how to stop it.

Aspects +/- at my cousin:

+: Kindness, warm and emotional temperament, openness

-: Life sometimes too superficial and focused on matter

Dream #3: The black pirate sail

Dream: On a boat, there is a notion of betrayal of part of the group, especially of a man I believe.

He chooses to hoist a black pirate sail. He is with other negative people. With the rest of the group, we try to stay with him without rejecting him, but without being completely “approached”.

For example, at one point at the table, we share food with him so that he doesn't stay hungry...

At the same time we know that there is always this negative dynamic which has not yet been transformed within him.

*I received this dream in a fairly initiatory context where I was experiencing questions, doubts, deep concerns about the future and where I prayed to help me not to be too hard on myself and to achieve to pass this initiation with awareness and wisdom.